High-Elves...

You've got to love the high-elves; such a deeply intriguing race ^.^

[Hate]

So today I joined the infamous guild known as [Hate] on the Frost Reach server. The last guild I was a part of was very small and didn't have much motivation to become a tightly knit crew of castanics, elves, humans, and the like. When I quit I originally began formulating plans to start a new revolutionary guild that defied the guild know-how of the past. But now, I see myself applying my desire for awesomeness to [Hate] ^.^

My first experience with [Hate] occurred within the first few days of my Tera experience; I was minding my own business, fighting off hordes of noruks, when I noticed the world chat for the first time (note: I hadn't really paid any attention to it, as this has been my first real MMO experience; SWTOR and WoW just didn't do it for me :/) Anyways, the guild-master made a world post looking for new recruits, and it was just too funny! All his calls-for-membership contained references to hatred, misery, not-helping, empty guild banks, and more. I definitely remembered this guild even though I was, at the time, part of another guild. I was glad to see a recent call-for-membership today, and jumped at the opportunity to join <3

This guild-poster was designed by a member of [Hate]

Via the Facebook page

This is me

J.S.Steinman

This is the high-elf slayer that represents me within the world of Tera. I chose to play as a high-elf for two simple reasons. Firstly, they seemed to me to be exceptionally out-of-place within the realm itself; high-elves and elves in general are, in my experience, found in old-age forest worlds where they are in some sort of contact with orcs, goblins, dwarves, and other variations of elves. Of course, we see this in Tera, but not necessarily as main character-players. As such, they seemed out-of-place to me, more so than the lolita bunny bitches and sentient animals and the dinosaur slaves. Second, high-elves are generally beautiful as far as aesthetics are concerned, I I absolutely adore the style of their armour, their physical forms, and their cities and towns. For these reasons, I felt that high-elf was the way to go! (Also, I tend to be more effeminate, and I felt that both the male and female captured that quality, for obvious reasons ^.^)

I chose to roll as a slayer for two reasons as well. Firstly, I fucking love giant-ass swords but, seriously, who doesn't? Secondly, I tend to be a more aggressive, independent player, and I couldn't stand the thought of standing by the sidelines healing comrades or shooting arrows from my puny bow -.-

(No disrespect to priests, hunters, and the like; noble professions, just not for me)

 Now I'm sure that you would have noticed by now that my character is a female, whereas I am personally a male. This is simply because the female figure is exceptionally aesthetically pleasing compared to the male figure. It's not some creepy sexual thing where I get my rocks off playing a dainty chick. I just figured that if I'm going to play a online video-game for hours exceeding the normal span of one week, I wanted to be looking at something aesthetically appealing, not big, clunky, lanky, and overall, sickening.


But, I digress, this is my character, my guide as I explore the vast realm of Tera. It has, thus far, been an incredible experience, and I hope to catalog my experiences here, on this blog. <3

She just looks good. Not in a creepy super-sexual way where I fantasize about banging a high-elf while I play Tera in my mom's basement, but in a pseudo-philosophical way where my feelings for this feminine figure are the same as my feelings for an impeccable work of art or finely crafted piece of architecture, wherein I observe the character whilst playing Tera in my apartment.

A little bit about me ^.^

My name will remain undisclosed, not out of any fear of scrutiny, but simply because this isn't supposed to be about me.
I am:

> Twenty-one years old

> A male, though a slightly effeminate one

> By definition bi-sexual, though I would not refer to myself that way (I have been in a loving relationship with my girlfriend for just over a year now, and I had been in a three-year relationship prior to this, but I also have romantic yet rarely sexual feelings for certain male friends)

> Attending university to earn my B.A. in philosophy, after which I plan to attend a second university to earn my PhD in philosophy

> I plan to open a modern day School of Athens in Washington, D.C. where I will promote the study of philosophy at-large

> As you have probably guessed, my favourite field of study is philosophy, particularly the musings of Friedrich Nietzsche, Albert Camus (to a certain extent), and Schopenhauer

> I tend to think of myself as a Meursault-like individual, which pains me

> I am obsessed with the concept of suicide, but I would never, ever, in a million years actually end my own life. I'm more so interested in the motivations that lead people to committ suicide, their thought processes, and the like. Also, I feel that one of the ultimate philosophical questions (i.e. what happens after we die) is the easiest question to answer on an individual basis, simply because we can find out at any time we wish, through self-termination. I'm not depressed, I'm not in any sort of anguish, I simply want to know what happens, and I feel I could, in a sense, find out if I were to self-terminate

> I love cigarettes

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Sorry to ramble like that, but my medications get me a little fired-up ^.^

That's just a little bit about me, at least, the most important things about me, that truly define me.

Hello one and all ^.^

I started up this blog simple because I have really enjoyed my time exploring the exiled realm of Arborea up to this point, and I've had some great epiphanies and experiences along the way. As a result, I've decided to start sharing them with people who I meet in the world, as well as with friends I hold dear in the real world :P

So, enjoy :D